4 hearings 4 incident reports filed against me with my local PD. Three kicked-back harassment claims filed against me at work. Too many lies told and posted on social media to count. Hundreds of messages calling me psychotic and a liar. Several sharpie-on-paper-towels ‘notes’ stuck on my front door with duct tape. $0 in childContinue reading “365 days”
Category Archives: In the Middle of It All
Ten Years
Chipped my tooth on an engagement ring. That’s bad luck (bad luck). Could have stopped any one of these things. But that would have been bad luck. – Neko Case, “Bad Luck” (This post is from my personal blog from February of this year – only five months out and the beginning of really acceptingContinue reading “Ten Years”
In the Daylight Again
(As I approach the one year anniversary of setting myself free, I am sharing posts from my personal blog that I wrote not only before I started this blog, but also before I was fully out of the fog and could see what I was dealing with…. here’s to time passing and clarity coming toContinue reading “In the Daylight Again”
Not So Little Conversations
Like a book with missing pagesLike a story incompleteLike a painting left unfinishedIt feels like not enough to eat. – Little Conversations, Concrete Blonde I’m acutely aware of time sailing by at breakneck speed these days. Even when, in theory, it should feel like trying to drain the last of the honey jar now thatContinue reading “Not So Little Conversations”
Vigilance as Meditation
There have been so many hoops in the process. Decide to be done. Not give in to the promises to focus on his family when I’ve heard it so many times. Try to amicably agree on custody. Lawyer up after threats and attempts to bully me into submission. Get through court. Get through the secondContinue reading “Vigilance as Meditation”
What Must Divide
Court is over. For now. I still need to file a child support motion so I know I’ll be back sooner than later. But tonight, I’m three days out from finally being done with the bullshit neglect charges that have resulted in him getting almost nothing that he filed for but gave me decision makingContinue reading “What Must Divide”
Just Call Me Snowflake
Tonight I crawled into my daughter’s bed to hear her breathing and stare at her face and remember why it is that I had to go through what I went through – why I have to go through what I still go through. For her. I wouldn’t have this exact human unless I fell intoContinue reading “Just Call Me Snowflake”
Life After Narcissistic Abuse 